First venue visit!

I made an appoinment for this weekend to visit our first venue.
I was so flustered I could barely form coherant sentences! I couldn't even remember my own e-mail address!
I think I'm excited and nervous to actually be PLANNING MY WEDDING!!!
By Saturday I should be able to pull myself together so I don't faint, stutter, or twitch nervously at the venue. My fiance's steady arm around my waist will help wonderfully I think.

Whew! I did not expect this nervous manifestation of emotion! (I'm still shaking a little!)

Wedding planning starts

And so it begins... what I presume will be alot of entries about the planing of my wedding. It will be a very DIY affair with vintage flair.

I have been going nuts on pinterest and wedding blogs & sites (Martha Stewart Weddings and The Knot are a couple faves) for months (and even contacted a photographer & coordinator under the radar) and am excited to get the real planning going. I set the planning process in motion by sending this letter to family members & close friends. It announces the date and scheme of our wedding and asks them to start collecting vintage plates, misc. glass bottles for center pieces, wine bottles for serving water at the reception, farmers market berry baskets, and to keep an eye out for vintage furniture for a reception lounge.



I've also been busy starting a cost worksheet so I can set a sample budget.

My next step will be to meet with each of our parents to find out how involved they want to be in planning and financing.

I have been taking cues from The Complete Idiot's Guide to the Perfect Wedding (I got the 3rd edition from Half Price Books) and have been going over wedding checklists like this one.

This is really happening!!!

Proposal Photos

Coffee Mug Swap

What a cute idea! I'm in!

How does a Coffee Mug Swap work?
It’s easy!

-If you are interested in participating in this mug swap, simply send an e-mail to the address below and include the following information.

Send to: SuzelsSays@gmail.com

Subject: COFFEE MUG SWAP

Include: First and last name, Shipping Address, and URL

-You will then get paired up with someone else who wants to participate.

-Once you are paired up I will provide you with your coffee-pal’s name, shipping information, and their blog address. That way, you can go to their blog, check out their style, learn more about them, and make a new friend!

-In the next week or so (the sooner the better), send them a coffee mug that you think they would love! They will do the same, so you get a cute coffee mug in return! It doesn’t have to be expensive, but it does have to be thoughtful.


-After both parties receive their mug, blog about the mug you sent and received!

More info here

He liked it. So...

Yep. He put a ring on it.

My darling boyfriend of 8 months and 16 days asked me to marry him today! I said yes.

The skinny:
He took me to the Main St. Fort Worth Arts Festival in the morning on a beautiful, sunny, low 70ºs day where we reveled in strolling around and perusing local (and less local) artists' booths: from leather purses to kinetic sculptures with all sorts of paintings, jewelry, photography, and drawings in between.
We relaxed in the shade of some trees listening to the musical stylings a very adept cover artist and were encircled in sweet symphonic samplings of Beethoven, William Tell, and John Williams from the Fort Worth Symphony Orchestra in Bass Hall. I even got to charleston and shag to the swingin' sounds of Ricki Derrik with some lovely friends before heading to Fort Worth Botanic Garden with my man for some R&R on a picnic blanket under 'our tree'.
As we walked to our spot in the garden, butterflies fluttered all around us like I've never seen before. He didn't wait long after we set up our blanket before pulling out the ring.
As soon as I saw the box I burst into tears. We both cried and hugged and blubbered so much that later we had to ask each other, "did you actually ask me?!" and "Did you say yes??". Once he got the ring on the correct finger on the correct hand (there was some confusion there in the emotional commotion) and after much hugging and tear wiping, he revealed to me that his sister was hiding behind a tree taking pictures of us. She hugged and congratulated us and shot a few more photos before leaving us to smile at my left hand and each other.

We decided to head back downtown to meet back up with our friends (or so I thought) so we headed back to the car and were again enveloped in flocks of butterflies. Steven shot some photos of me and my ring with the little darlings.

He turned the incorrect way for heading downtown and confessed that we were not going back but were heading to his apartment where our families and a few close friends were gathered for a BBQ to celebrate the occasion.

After the excitement of the day, it was clear to me that I would not be drifting off to sleep right away so I shot a few photos of the ring.

It was purchased in 1947 for Steven's late maternal grandmother. It is gold with white gold settings. The wedding band is still attached. We decided to leave it on and add our own wedding band from metal and stones from one of my late maternal grandmother's rings.

I like to imagine what it was like for Steven's grandfather to go to the jeweler in the late 1940s to pick out and invest in the ring that would change his life forever. And just changed mine.

When left to my own devices

I bake.


Tonight my love is too tired to go out so I am home for a night in without him.


Tonight it's brownies.


I'm trying this recipe that I found by googling 'flour free cocoa brownies'. I never have baking chocolate on hand so I'm limited to cocoa... if you want to call that a limit. I love cocoa.


Here is the recipe:

Very Simple Gluten-free Brownies

Pre-heat the oven to 350 degrees

4 eggs
2 Tbs. Butter
1/3 cup sugar
2/3 cup unsweetened powdered cocoa
pinch of salt
Nuts are optional (can add nuts and / or chocolate chips to make them fancier)

Melt butter.
Add eggs and beat.
Add sugar and salt.
Add cocoa powder

Mix till all cocoa powder is fully absorbed and well blended, but not a lot more. Bake in buttered or parchment lined pan for aproximately 20 min. at 350, or till knife comes out clean. Check after 15 minutes and keep checking.

I put it in an 8x8 pan. The recipe doesn't include a pan size.
I used almost 1/4 cup of coconut oil instead of 2T butter, sucanat for sugar, one of my 4 eggs had a double yoke, and I didn't put nuts in. I also added 1t cinnamon because of the Aztec Brownies I love so much at Atticus Bookstore & Cafe in New Haven, CT. On my most recent visit I had their salted caramel brownie which is EVEN BETTER than the Aztec! I digress. The Aztec brownie has cinnamon and chili and it is wonderful. I didn't have any chili powder so I'll have to try that next time.


I picked this recipe because it is SO simple, using no kind of flour whatsoever. It's basically just eggs and cocoa powder (which definitely made me think twice about tasting the batter... raw eggs... blech). If it turns out, it will be a great find. If not, it'll still be chocolate...


I just realized that I didn't put any vanilla extract in which I always add no matter what the recipe says... oh well.


I cooked them about 20 minutes and let them cool on a wire rack for 5 min. before cutting into them.

They have this nice swirly pattern

Official Review:
They are spongy in texture and a little bitter. I may have cooked them too long but they are a little dry as well and they stick to the pan. They hold together pretty well but the overall experience is not amazing.

My view from here

Life is very interesting.
I'm in a whole new stage that has left me little time to ponder. To sit alone and muse and wonder. When was the last time I sat alone and did nothing? Should I feel loss at that? When one enters a 'till death do us part' relationship does their alone life go to sleep forever? What happens to facing yourself and truly knowing what you think, feel, and want? It takes time to know oneself. Time and quiet.  Does that mist away and the energy redirect toward knowing someone else?
I do miss the quiet of a life that has been developed and patterned over the span of years. The comfort of knowing where you stand and how things are and what they mean.
My new life is mysterious. It is colorful and wild - untamed, uncharted. It is exciting and raw - rough and undeveloped.
I wanted the change and called for this moment. I had no idea what to expect. I still don't know what to expect.
I don't get to go back to the well worn life that mine was. I don't want to. I do look forward to the moment that my new life really feels like home. Like me.

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